lately i've been doing some thinking.
blogging is an outlet right?
i don' often talk about religion on my blog but
i feel compelled to share my thoughts.
for those of you that don't know
i am Mormon.
latter day saint.
i am by no means the best Mormon.
i definitely have my flaws.
and i'm not the most avid church go-er.
but never once in my life have i ever lost faith.
i know without a doubt in my mind that
there is a God and he loves me very much.
i know for a fact that he will answer prayers.
most of the time they are
on His timetable but he will answer them.
i also believe in personal revelation.
because i have had quite a few of them.
sometimes i don't listen because
i don't like what the answer is.
but God definitely doesn't mind repeating himself.
But the year i got pregnant with sam
i was praying every chance i got for a child.
i had no idea what i wanted
i had no idea what his name would be.
then one day around february,
it was like i got hit over the head with a stick.
**i seem to describe all my personal revelations like that***
**i guess i can be a little stubborn sometimes**
anyway, i was praying and all of the sudden
i knew i was going to have a boy
i knew his name was going to be sam
and i knew he was going to come that year.
i was a little leery about him actually being born that year
because it was already february.
but i kept the faith and he was born in december.
i tell this story because just last weekend
i had just said my night prayers
and was settling in for a good nights sleep
**i knew it was going to be good because i took a benedryl.... oh yeah**
all of the sudden it was like someone was yelling in my ear
holly
and right then i knew my next kid is going to be a girl
and her name is going to be holly.
**NOBODY CAN TAKE THAT NAME**
and i know she will come soon.
when for sure, i don't know.
but i've felt for a long time that i was going to have a girl next
because when sam was born for about a month,
i felt a very VERY strong presence of a girl around
us all the time.
and i am feeling her all the time once again.
but never in a million years would i have picked holly
as a name.
i don't really even know any holly's.
one of my friends told me that
to be able to receive personal revelation
is a spiritual gift.
that makes me feel wonderful,
but at the same time makes me wonder
if i was living an even better life if
i would be able to receive more,
or clearer answers and revelations.
anyway,
i also have had some other kinds of
obstacles in my life as of late.
and whenever i feel like it's going to go down the drain.
i get comforted knowing that everything
is going to work out fine.
how and when is beyond me.
but FAITH.
it's what keeps me going.
knowing that i have a divine trio
standing behind me.
that will never let me down
and will love me no matter what
makes life wonderful.
and if you listen
you will get your answers.
i know that anyone can receive revelations and
answers.
you just have to be still and listen.